Looking forward, living now
Raise your hand if you’ve ever thought “If only I could look like I did in high school…” or “I was happy when…”
I love to remember. I’ve kept journals for years and my entire life is documented in carefully crafted scrapbooks created by either me or my mother, and I look at them often. I reminisce about how great life was back then and how hard it is now. I’ve always thought that way, even during those times upon which I now remember with fondness. In the future, I’ll probably look back on my current life and think “Those were the days. Life sucks now.”
Part of living authentically is to accept you current self instead of longing for another time or place; your body the way it is now. Your living situation today. This doesn’t mean you’re life is perfect now or that you can change or improve. It means to learn to be happy now instead of waiting for things to change or for a time to return.
Even though I love my body the way it is, I still look at pictures of myself when I was 19 and think “I felt so great at that weight. I want to feel like that again.”
I have a lot in common with this girl, but I don’t think like she did. My body doesn’t look the same. I just retired that tank top because I wore the crud. I still climb trees, but this girl is my past.
Work with what you have now. Be your best now, because what worked for you last year may not work today. You may not be the same person you were in college. I’ll never be the girl in the first picture again, but that’s ok. I’m just as great as she was, and I’m only getting better.
Learn from the past, but look to the future and focus on now. These are the good old days.